Deep, Dark Pit
Sadly I've fallen into that deep, dark pit again and can't escape .
Things are too bad for me to write much at the moment. I have severe anxiety and revving and haven't slept for the last four nights. Both my ears are painful with possible infections whch may be the cause of the bad wave. Otherwise everything is as in a wave and I'm trying hard to remember all that I've been writing here to get through. When it's this bad I just want to curl up and forget everything. I'm in my bed praying for this to pass and set me free again. I have lost all positivity for now and I apologise. I must remember this is healing and will take me to a happier, healthy place eventually.
I will return when I can be more lucid. My love to everyone alongside me in this.