18. Jun, 2015

Summertime and the Livin' is Easy......


Summertime, and the livin' is easy

Fish are jumpin' and the cotton is high

Oh, your daddy's rich and your ma is good-lookin'

So hush little baby, Don't you cry



One of these mornings you're gonna rise up singing

And you'll spread your wings and you'll take to the sky

But 'til that morning, there ain't nothin' can harm you

With Daddy and Mammy standin' by


I love this song by Ella Fitzgerald. I am hoping the summer of 2015 will see continued recovery for me and others. Perhaps I'll be able to spread my wings and take to the sky! 😀

It’s now officially summertime in the UK and nearing the longest day. This season brings with it natural healing powers. The vitamin D of the sunshine, the warm days and the light evenings all help to lift mood. Longer, more relaxing walks are possible while locally grown produce such as strawberries and raspberries are readily available to enhance our diets. Tomorrow I shall venture forth in my camper van again as this helps to change the scene and divert from the lingering symptoms. We’re thinking of heading towards the Welsh coastline and the long sandy beaches of the Gower peninsula, almost as good as the beaches here at home in Cornwall! Still it’s a fresh scene, new places and a relaxing time away with no telephone or internet pressures.

Just a few thoughts as year three of withdrawal continues. Many say that this is the year that recovery really becomes more obvious for us protracted folks. Year 2 is worse than year 1, while year 3 finally sees positive changes and may even herald full recovery. Of course there are those that take longer but symptoms shouldn’t be as intense after this time. 

I continue ‘rippling’ but can live like this for the most part. I’m still unable to tolerate a lot of people and remain socially isolated. This is when friends are most needed to help you to start integrating back into life. Unfortunately those friends, unless ‘real and sincere’ friends may have long since left the scene and forgotten you. There’s a lot on my page entitled ‘Friends and Families’ to help those that care for you to come to your aid when you reach this phase. Don’t despair if you feel you have no friends at this time, they will come forward once you’re almost back to yourself and not that desperate, red eyed, frightened, emaciated creature you may have been for the last few years! I know I scared many away as I couldn’t talk on the telephone or arrange times for them to drop in as I was just too ill most days and it went on and on. This is why we must get the word out there, doctors trained and prescribing laws and practices changed in the UK.  It’s only then that people will really believe what’s happening to us. To this end I’ve started a petition so please sign to at least bring it to the notice of the powers that be. I know its been done before but we just have to keep chipping away at the ignorance and denial.



I continue to try and put my book together from this Blog. I only hope it can be published one day if it gets that far. There are many books out there written by former sufferers and finding a different angle isn’t so easy. In some ways its all been said before but this is a personal journey and as such worth recording I suppose. I want it to be my story as well as informative on what’s helped me get through a rough withdrawal after a lifetime of these prescription drugs. It’s evolving slowly. The cartoon recently posted on the Beating Benzos Facebook group may possibly give me my title ‘Benzomania’ but I’ll wait until it’s all finished before making a final decision. I'm adding it here as well.

I’m healing, it’s slow but it’s obvious. My days are happy but just a little foggy and my nights can still herald stress dreams and body vibrations but I am getting a lot more sleep. My message is to keep positive and if protracted believe that it will all gradually fade away until just a memory.