I AM Fully Healed

[WebDevElijah]

I wanted to share my success story for those who feel like this will never end. When you're experiencing withdrawal symptoms, it feels like an eternity and like the worst nightmare you could have never imagined—whether it’s been two weeks or two years.

 

I consider myself one of the lucky few. I was on Benzos for a short time, and my withdrawal lasted about three weeks. Even so, the terror and memories of it will likely stay with me for the rest of my life. It was an intense learning experience, but I finally feel like myself again.

 

The last five weeks have been a rollercoaster, and I can only imagine how awful it must be for those who endure this for much longer. I experienced almost every symptom imaginable and feared that my hearing, vision, and sleep patterns were permanently damaged by those pills. The anxiety was terrifying, but I thought I could live with it if I had to. However, the intrusive thoughts made me feel like I was losing my mind.

 

Reading the forum, I found I could relate to so many experiences. It was both comforting and scary—comforting to know I wasn’t alone, but frightening to think I might never heal. I worried that this nightmare would last for months or even years.

 

A wise family member once told me, “If you’re worried about losing your mind, you’re definitely not going to! People who have lost their mind aren’t even aware they’ve lost it.” This advice brought me so much relief. I remembered a visit to a psychiatric hospital where many patients didn’t even know their own names. Reflecting on this, I realized my family member was right. I returned to that thought many times throughout my journey.

 

If you were “normal” before, you WILL be normal again. I was told this repeatedly by friends and family, and it was one of the few things that provided me with any comfort. I can honestly say now that they were right. I feel normal again, and being able to sleep well is as wonderful as I remembered. I have a newfound appreciation for the small things in life, and I believe that will happen for all of you too.

 

I wish you all the best of luck and include members of this site in my bedtime prayers. Please have faith that you will get through this. Don’t be discouraged when you have a bad day—push through it and keep going. Healing will come.

 

I AM Fully Healed